For me it’s time signatures in music. I grew up playing instruments, played in several orchestras, etc. But no matter how many times someone tries to explain time signatures to me, it makes no sense. I don’t understand why people place such importance on it. To me, notes have a pitch and a duration, maybe some dynamics. That’s it. I don’t understand why people try to needlessly complicate it. It doesn’t give you anything.
My wife will hear a song and go “Oh neat, it’s in 5/8.” And I’m like “How tf do you know that, and why does it matter?”
I managed to fix the routine a bit in the past week or so, and had some great nights of sleep, uninterrupted and unmarred by dreams. Feels pretty nice.
I can do a bit of lucid dreaming, in that after waking up and falling asleep again, I’m often aware that I’m dreaming — but full control and consciousness eluded me so far, it’s more like the mind racing with random thoughts in half-sleep. So haven’t gained anything from it either (and don’t quite think I want to).