Live in the past, is mine. I will listen to things over and over because some songs or even podcast episodes, rewind me back to times where I felt comfortable in. I do sometimes poke my head out to see where things are currently in the present, but nothing around really makes me gravitate to anything current-day. But, then I just go back to my hole in living in the past.
People used to tell old people to get over it about them remembering things as they were all of the time. I’m understanding why they do that. Sometimes the present really truly sucks.
Some months ago walking got suddenly painful in the lower back. Walking down a stair was only possible at half the normal speed. I am fourty-something and this made me feel very old. I did more of my usual back-strengthening exercises, but it got worse. I thought surely something is broken. When I went to the doctor she told me that I just neglected stretching, mostly the hip flexor. It went away after doing that. Apparently very common when you sit a lot, and when you do lots of running. (And I did try more running to make it go away, without stretching afterwards, lol.)