Since you’ve tried both, you can ground yourself in realistic expectations when thinking about either lifestyle.

When someone fantasizes about something, usually they are only thinking about the nice parts of that experience. And conversely, once a person is used to their current life, the novelty wears off and people tend to take some things for granted, not realizing they’re enjoying it until they don’t have it anymore.

So my suggestion is: Think about both the positives and negatives of the road you aren’t taking right now, then count the blessings of your current situation, then think about where you want to take yourself from there. Don’t give up on figuring out what you want, but if you’re getting what you think you want but still constantly yearning for something else, you should step back and evaluate things with just a bit more of a calm and rational mind.