If you trauma dump enough it should get better.

Idk If it your kind of jam but right now there is really good show airing that deals with grief “journal with witch”. It would be shock theraphy so take this as trigger warning.

I decided that I need to get a stable grade first, no matter what. Then I need to increase my financial income.

Only then, I’m hoping that they MIGHT stop picking on me and then I can focus on myself, for myself.

It won’t work. They won’t stop picking on you. It’s not how it works.

Your plan might sound good on paper but you will burn out eventually.

To recover from mental health damage you NEED to be safe. Move out of your parents by any means necessary. If you are in collage get a room in a dorm.

Step 0. Get to safety
Step 1. Focus on yourself and recover
Step 2. …
Step 3. Have a successful life.

Depending on your circumstances pausing the university or aiming for bearly passing grade and simultaneously focusing on yourself would be better that loosing sleep.

I need to do well in my studies and overall life

What do you mean by that? What would you consider good life?

loser-oriented reasons I used to vaguely remember until 2023 when I started to forget.

This hints at a bigger problem that you aren’t aware of yet.

Why do you think that gaming all night or watching a series is “loser-oriented” behaviour?

Sometimes publishers make game of the year edition, ultimate edition or as in GTA SA definite edition. Usually they just include DLCs and additional content that they released so far. I wouldn’t mark it as not-original.

From game preservation perspective, torrents are the best bet to get that one specific version.

As you didn’t play games you can go and play banger titles from previous years that you can grab for pennies when they go on frequent sales. There is dedicated community of !patientgamers@sh.itjust.works.

kernel-level anti-cheat is vary good headline clickbait for media to write on. Most games don’t have them. Some competitive multiplayer games have them but you can check it case by case basis.

If you REALLY want to have separate device for gaming, as you don’t really need that, there are few options to choose from. Playstation, Xbox, and Switch are the mainstream consoles right now. The have a fair share of anti-consumer practices and they offset the cost of hardware by making games more expensive, but you buy convenience and simplicity. The lemmy bubble will tell you to buy Steam Deck and it is really fine choice to make. (Steam is releasing new hardware this year so you might take a look)

Steam has 2 hours of playtime return policy, so you can return the game if you don’t like it. Their hardware pitch is to sell console-like experience (Playsation etc.) on PC. They succeeded in that regard.