nomad

Even before my undying love for my children and the endless sacrifices I’m willing to commit to for them: purely for egoistic reasons I would take that bullet, because living with the pain of losing a child would keep me alive while suffering like nobody should ever suffer while being needed alive for your other children.

Get professional help my dude. Not the coding kind, but there psychological kind. Please

Debian admin here. Even Debian gets regular kernel upgrades that like a reboot afterwards. Security updates are more important than uptime. Also regular testing for clean recovery after a reboot is a must so a power outrage doesn’t bring any new surprises with it. Also test your backup restores regularly.